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A Note To Dad…

Jul 27, 2006
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It’s amazing to me how the smallest things can ignite such sudden emotion in my heart.  Tonight, I found this little note that I had written my dad tucked inside of a book from his library. 

On the back of the note he had written the date: 1-17-82. 

I was nine years old. 

And now, here I am 24 years later…  Dad is in Heaven and my life is so incredibly different than I would have ever imagined. 

It’s been 21 months since he unexpectedly passed away and I still find myself shaking my head in disbelief from time to time.  I often wonder why it feels so hard to accept that he’s really gone.  When I pause from my hectic life and get quiet, I find myself missing him more than words can describe.  Those are the moment that I realize the pain is still pretty dang fresh. 

Looking at this note tonight, it makes me wonder what he must have felt when he found it in one of his books or sitting on his desk.  I’m curious as to what challenges or difficulties he may have been facing on that day.  Weird thoughts, I know… 

But pushing aside my grief, I’m reminded of how incredibly blessed I am to have had this man as my father/friend/mentor/leader.  He empowered me in so many ways…  He encouraged me to lead and pursue God’s best for my life.  He showed me unconditional love and never strayed from it. 

Was he perfect?  No.  But knowing that encourages me as I realize how far I have to go as a husband and father to the three incredible girls in my life (one wife, two daughters that is…).

I’d love nothing more than to be able to write another note and slip it on his desk.  So just in case he’s reading my blog from the ultra, high-speed connection in Heaven, I’ll say it again:

I love you Dad.


5 Responses to “A Note To Dad…”

  1. How neat to find that note you gave your dad all these years later!! What an AWESOME reminder of the wonderful relationship the two of you had.
    I think about your parents every time I tuck David in to bed. I don’t know if you remember but one of the first times we visited you in Chicago, your mom and dad gave David a little blue lamb that has a collar that reads “Jesus Loves Me.” It also plays “Jesus Loves Me.” He recently began sleeping with it again. He winds it up and this is the music that puts him to sleep.
    Even though I didn’t know your dad really well, every time I think about him, I think about what an honor it was to know him. I think about how kind and loving he was to my family. I am glad that I got to know him on this Earth. My only wish is that I could have gotten to know him better.
    Love to you and your family! Hopefully we can make it to Chicago before the end of the year!! :-)

  2. pedro Garcia says:

    Thanks for this post amigo. Encouraging.
    pg

  3. Allen Arnn says:

    Can’t remember how I found your blog a while back… maybe from comments on Mark Batterson or http://www.flowerdust.net??
    Cool post about your Dad… sorry you lost him early.
    My wife’s dad passed away a few years ago when she was 32. Tough stuff but she learned SO much through it. I hope broadband in heaven is in at least the terabit range.

  4. Dragon Dads

    My friend Scott Hodge posted this great thought on his blog a couple days ago. Scott tragically lost his dad a couple of short years ago. Scott’s dad was a pastor in Aurora and actually performed the marriage ceremony for

  5. Dragon Dads

    My friend Scott Hodge posted this great thought on his blog a couple days ago. Scott tragically lost his dad a couple of short years ago. Scott’s dad was a pastor in Aurora and actually performed the marriage ceremony for

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