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This past weekend I shared an excerpt from one of my dad’s journals and so many of you have asked if I could post it. So here it is. It was written in November of 2003 and as you’ll see, this was his attempt at putting into words a very deep experience of God’s love he was having over the last 18-24 months of his life. I’m honored to share it with you and I hope that it creates a deeper hunger in you for a greater experience of God’s love and grace in your own life.
I do not know how to describe what has happened to me. I only know that deep within me, I mean really deep, it seems that something, connected to an understanding of God’s love, has changed me. I sense that this change is a forever thing. It seems that God never goes back on what He does. I have been captured by His love. It is something that I must admit, I never knew existed like I am now experiencing. It is like I have stepped into a new dimension where the height and depth are beyond my comprehension.
I am consumed with a passion to tell people about what I have experienced for the sole purpose of helping them to know that they can have it too. This love relationship offered to me and everyone by the Father is beyond anything I could ever imagine. I am overwhelmed that I have been privileged to experience it. I know that everyone else can experience it too…but love is powerless unless it is consented to. I must confess that I am coming to understand this, and am so grateful for the honor of being loved by the Most High God, and yet I understand that since he is love he can do nothing else but love us.
I have a glimpse of what the institutional church has allowed to happen. It has presented a picture of God and Christ that is inconsistent with who they are. As a product of that church, I desire to liberate those who are caught up in it; to save others from it. I have a passion to take people who are turned off by religion or to religion and turn them on to Jesus Christ and turn them in to devoted followers of Christ.
November 2003, 4:31AM
This past Monday marked five years since my dad passed away. It was a good day actually. Spent it with my mom, sister, and our families. It's always good to be together on "the day."
What a five years it's been. On one hand, there's been a lot of mixed emotions as I've tried to journey past the loss of my father. Grief is a crazy thing. Just when you think you've conquered it, you realize you've been duped.
At the same time, however, my life has also been full of overwhelming joy as I've watched God pour his blessing upon my family and church community. And so of course, I'm extremely thankful.
But the thing that I'm becoming more and more thankful for as times goes by, is this thing called hope. For the first time in my life, I think I'm finally starting to "get it". In fact, I'm not even sure I was able to truly grasp the depth or idea of hope until I found myself in desperate need of it. And now, I find myself becoming more and more dependent upon it as each day passes.
From my journal (8/09):
Hope tells me that…
The future will be better than today.
What's broken will one day be fixed.
What hurts will one day be healed.
What is wrong will one day be made right.
What has been missed, will one day be compensated for.
I'm choosing to embrace this with both hands.
Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13